I have no words

I have no words. But I search for words anyway. I have nothing new to say. Yet I must say something. Bloggers and meme creators have already exhausted all the possible ways to express their dismay over tomorrow's events. I have nothing new to say. Yet I must say something.

I must say something because I ache inside for what will happen in my country tomorrow. I must say something because, for better or worse, this medium serves to gather and preserve my family's history, and even the sad things need to be documented.

As President Obama leaves office tomorrow, I must say something, though I'm quite sure it won't be anything new.

I will miss him so. I will miss his grace, his integrity, his honor. I will miss his humor and his wit and his captivating smile. I've often thought that once the President gig ended, he should consider stand-up comedy.

I will miss his beautiful family and the love and respect he consistently showed for his wife and daughters.

I will miss his strength and resilience. When they went low, he went high.

Four years ago, I celebrated his reelection. It was a joyous time. I was so grateful he would serve a second term to strive to make our already great country, even greater. And admittedly, I was grateful I would never have to say "President Romney."

Oh how I wish that tomorrow, I would be able to say "President Romney." Because although Governor Romney's politics are vastly different from my own, and although his vision for our country would never mesh with mine, he was (and is) a man of honor. His presence as a world leader would not have been an embarrassment to the United States.

Circulating social media are a few memes and posts, suggesting that to wish an incoming President to fail is to wish cataclysmic failure for all of us. True. Certainly, I do not wish for the President-elect to fail. But unfortunately, failure seems inevitable in light of his behavior prior to the election and his behavior and choices since.

I have no words. And, as most of you know, I always have words. I can't even wrap my mind around this. It is unbelievable.

Tomorrow would be a sad day for me regardless of who the new President was. I love President Obama, and I would miss him no matter what. But this situation feels so much worse.

It feels tragic.